Feel Empty

i know this is the "Catrutest" blog ever posted, but you know how my feeling is, since i arrived here i feel empty, cause i lost two important points on my life, first family, i must leave my family in order to fulfill the calling (work) second, my friends, every day i remember moments when we're crazing together, but now i feel like i'm walking alone in this world without those two points.

i hope it'll ends fast, so i wont feel empty anymore. and one more thing i left my most precious thing on my home, something that my mother gave to me, so that my name is known either school or public. but once again i left it.

the only one communication i have just my cell phone, to contact my family and friends, but it wont worth too much if i cant meet them.

i miss them all, i'm missing them already. i hope we'll meet soon.


Damn. it keeps continue surrounding my mind, i really want to leave this place and come back home. but i can't leave my responsibility here. i tried to act and pretend like that i don't really care about everything around me, but i can't, i do care about everything near me, and that made me sick, maybe my body is here but my soul is left in my home.

Damn, damn and damn, every day this word came out from my mouth to describe that i can't leave this place now.